27. Closed Doors: What’s behind the door? Why is it closed?
Do you remember that scene in Harry Potter?
It’s in the Sorcerer’s stone. Harry thinks he is on his way to stop Snape from stealing the stone but really it’s Voldemort on the back of Quirrel’s head. What an awful surprise. But before he gets there he has to get through a locked door and of course alohomora won’t do the trick. Everything in life always has to be done the hard way, which means sometimes you have to jump on a broom and take your pick of keys.
Sometimes I feel like all of life is that scene. We’re always looking for keys to get behind some mythical closed door. Ultimately, I guess happiness is behind the door and you know, not dark wizards that murdered our parents. Each key is something that we think will finally open that door. One key is love, one is a career, and so on and so forth. But another door always seems to be on the other side and I can’t help but wonder is there ever an end to the doors?
As of late it appears that the answer to that question is no, and I keep searching for a window to crawl out of. What would that even be like to live in a world with no doors? Just open space where you feel at peace. An argument could be made that contentment stops progression, but I think there is a way to move forward without locking yourself outside of the warm, fuzzy feelings. I think it takes a level of control though that I have yet to master so I’m not sure if I know how it works.
My dog Peanut has this knack of locking doors. He gets so anxious when he hears someone coming home that he actually manages to lock the door with his paws. Maybe we want things so badly that it takes all the joy out of it. We seek permission to be happy and because of it no one and nothing can open the door for us. Do you stay inside a room forever? Well, no you just learn to appreciate what’s around. You make goals for yourself because it’s what you want and not what others want for you, and soon you walk through the door like it’s the easiest thing you’ve ever done.